Boxing day today, went for Christmas party at ruoling house yesterday. I made baked rice, had a huge argument with JT over the time that he came. Haiz, long story so shan't talk about it, but it has been swept under the carpet as usual. I also dunno what to do about it. NVM!
It was a nice party at ruoling's place, was quite tired on the journey here so didn't really talk to venus that much but then once i reached ruoling's place and meet the rest of the people i suddenly felt so high. Haha, couldn't stop grinning and really enjoyed the company of the people there. Its been 10,000 years since I last saw xiaowei, but she never change at all (in terms of appearance). I guessed I talked to her more on the journey back home then at ruoling house. Nana came back from Shanghai! I was quite worried when she told me that she fell sick in Shanghai, but I guess all is well now. She looks so げんきyesterday!
I am amazed at how blessed I am with these people around me. Lixin, venus, ruoling, nana. These are the people who have been with me through JC. Just these short 2 years and yet we manage to become such good friends.
To Nana: I remember the period of time when our friendship was on all time low. I remembered being how scared of telling you that I can't or don't want to make it to the outings that were organized. But I guess we kinda reached an understanding now. Cos, i dun feel terrified anymore. Thanks nana, for accepting me for who I am and for being such a 够义气 friend all these time.
To Ruoling: I really can't thank you enough all these time that we are together. You have always been a source of strength for me, through canoe and through uni. Although we don't meet up a lot during the sch term, we just don't seem to grow apart so much that we no longer understand each other. I am really amaze by you. I mean i read your blog to find out what is happening in your life, so there are still some things that I know about you, but I don't even dilligently keep a blog to update you all about my life and our friendship still stay strong. Thanks for everything that you have done for me.
To Lixin: I really owed you an apology, over the canoe thing. I have really been feeling very bad about it. So I shall sincerely apologize to you. Actually, i wanted to apologize over this for a long long time liao. I even wrote you a letter, but I am just too ashame to give it to you. Lixin, thanks for tolerating me all through that period of time and for completing the race with me. I am really thankful for what you have done. Thanks for putting up with my childish and totally irritating manner and for being my friend again. So often I wonder what have I done to deserve a friend like you and that if I am in your shoes, I will never ever ever befriend a person like myself again after those time. So, THANK-YOU THANK-YOU so much for being my friend
To Venus: Haha, amongst them all, i think you are the one who is the most
]]>Saya belum belajar QPM saya. Peperiksaan adalah pada Hari Selesa. Saya mahu ada A untuk modul ini tetapi saya tak belajar dengan rajin. Saya belajar lebih rajin untuk Behasa Melayu dari QPM. Ada banyak bacaan untuk modul ini, oleh itu, saya tak suka belajar QPM. Sangat bosanlah!
Modul ini mesti beringat banyak banyak nota, saya tak ada kepala yang besar untuk meletak banyak pengetahuan di dalam kepala saya. Baik lah, saya mesti balik belajar. Tak boleh bercakap cakap dan membuang masa saya!
Guess what made me blog again... I was reading ruoling's blog and nana's blog and then on nana's blog i found links to my own blog and then i clicked on it. Haha, the last post was before I went over to China and now I have been back from China for about 1 month already. Oh my, this Eileen New is really ridiculous. Haha.
I really wanted to blog when I was in China, but I think they restricted people from blogging, I cant access blogger, cant access vox and everything else. I din get to read all of other's post during that time too. Bleah! Met up with Ruoling and Zer yesterday for dinner. SO nice to meet up for dinner although the time is so short. Saw ruoling with her braces, and she was dressed so formally for the talk. Cant believe that there are still so much similarities between us. I remembered the times when we used to know what the other was thinking or feeling cos we are almost always together, but now its like we are so seldom together and yet we still think alike on some points. was talking to ruoling yesterday and she was saying that she dun want to work in a bank and want to be a project manager and i was like thinking, "OH MY GOSH" that was exactly my sentiments. Everyone is rushing into finance and the bank right now, but I just dun think that i am suited for that. I dun think that I can take all the competition (to put it in a nice way, backstabbing and bitching and ...) in there. The culture and the environment is just NOT RIGHT. Ya, so what if that is where all the money all, life is not about money, its about feeling happy everyday and being satisfied with your job. I think the sense of accomplishment and the sense of satisfaction that i can get out of product management is something that i will never get out of banks. I mean, what can i feel happy in a bank? I cant even relate anything to the bank. haha. So *highfive to rl.
I miss nana, it has been such a long time since i last saw her. before i went over to china? I really should find sometime to meet up with her. Nana and RL, lets find some time and then go K together. I wanted to go K in spore, cos i havent been to one yet. *stop laughing you pple!* I think a day during the recess week will be nice. Nana, will u be able to make it?
I havent start on my fyp. I am like so dead, the inertia is just too great. I woke up bright and early this morning and i told myself, today is going to be fyp day, no joke and here i am still slacking around. Oh my god! someone, pls help me!!
Been reading nana and ruoling's blog. To nana: hey dear, take care of urself k, dun stress yourself too much, it is definitely madness with the number of projects, presentation, readings... that you have, but must 加油 and 撑下去，很快就会雨过天晴了。I guess this is the period where it seems like u are doomed to run forever and forever and you are already so very tired and worn out but yet you are not allowed to rest. Its like a never ending nightmare! Yicks! But really, it will be over soon, so must pycho urself k. =big hugz=
Ruoling: I cant wait to see you again, been like half a year without seeing you, although we dun meet up often in NUS but there are still times where we will accidentally meet, but this time round it has been a really long long, long long time since i last saw you. Must meet up soon k! By the way, until when will u be staying in denmark? If i want to send you things, should i still send it to the address that u gave me that time? DTU campus village, Building 330 B9 Elektrovej, KGS Lyngby DK 2800, Denmark. Is it this? By the way, I have my address in JiaDing already, send to you all ok, so that if you all are coming can just come to that place, I will be getting my Shanghai number as soon as i reached there and i will send a message to inform both of you of my number ya.
alright, going to the main topic, I am really having the jitters now. Its like my very first time abroad and I am going to be there alone. What if I cant find my way around there? What if i cant get use to the food there? What if i meet some dangerous people? What if... So many what if and so many worries and fear. And I think that I am starting to miss my family and JT already. Haiz. This is so tough la, going also scared, if not going also unhappy, really so difficult to please. I think things will get better when Heqi comes, but in the meantime, I will really have to take care of myself and be really careful. A lot of people have been warning me about the people there in China, lets just hope that I will be lucky enough to meet some really nice people and definately no dangerous people pls. Read about how Ruoling went to look for Lifang alone and she is so brave to take the night bus alone, I think i will never be able to do that. What if some mad man comes along? Scary! Ruoling, you are really brave even though u too felt scared at that time. Well well, luckly all things turn out well for her in the end, lets hope that I will be just as lucky as her in the first week there in Shanghai.
Okie, going to pack my things now. Took almost everything except my visa, which i have to collect tomorrow at the chinese embassy. What else is there to pack? Any tips from anyone?
Hey Ruoling!! I received ya postcard! Thanks so much, was so shocked when my sis handed me the postcard! Woohoo! Its been such a long time since i saw that farmiliar handwritting. Hee, but unfortunately i can't eat all the things for you, put on like 2kg after the exams. Haha, so I am now back to normal weight, was so happy when I became slimmer during the exams but haiz.
Ruoling, when will you be flying back? Nana says to arrange a time for you to fly over so that she can come at the same time. When? I will be glad to receive you all anytime. Maybe somewhere in July? After nana finish her exams?
Met up with nana that day. It never fails to amaze me how 2 people who havent talk for such a long period of time, and to meet up and talk and not feel like a stranger. I mean, I seldom talk to nana online, or on the phone or via email or anything else, the only outlet where i get to know what happens in her life is through her blog which i read everytime I go online and yet, we are able to yak yak yak nonstop for like hours. Tell me about it. And there are some people whom you meet everyday and yet feel like strangers. You know, its like the more you know about them, the less you feel you know them. That sounds so sad but that is so true. *wink wink at nana. haha. enough about all the things that doesnt make you happy. Hee. Somehow i learnt this in my time in NUS. I used to dwell a lot on the unhappy stuff but now i just put them aside and dun think about it. Somehow after a while it just disappear. I think the more you think about them, the larger it seems to be. Its like making a mountain out of a molehill. I think I had too much happiness during my JC days which explains why I dwelt a lot on things that I shouldnt and didnt spend enough time on the things which I should.
Ok, I am just rambling, I dunno how much you can understand, but somehow Ruoling, i think you can get what i mean. Haa, after knowing how i was in canoe. In the comp lab now blogging, i am going to have a presentation at 2 and i have not practice it at all, not that i can be bothered.
My sister took my matric card to borrow books from the NUS library and happily forgot to return them to me, so now i am locked out of the ise lab and rouyi refuse to open the door for me to go in and practice. fine with me, then i shall come here and blog since i have the time. Hee. Some people are just childish.
there doesn't seems to be any order at all in my post, and i guess that is why my gp is always so lousy. Haha. okie. shall go look at my slides for a while and practice by myself.
]]>My my, its been such a long time since I blog here in vox, I bet that Ruoling and Nana both thought that my blog is non-existant. Haha. Thats the result of being lazy and absolutely no discipline at all. Right. Just to inform my friends that this will be the blog that I will be using for my internship in China. Hope to bring to you all the sights and sounds and nice things in Shanghai and to update all of you about how I am over there. (why do i speak like I am already there in Shanghai? Hmm). Anywayz, looking forward to going there at last and really hope, *cross my fingers* that Ruoling and Nana and venus can come and visit me in Shanghai. I bet it will be blast. Oh, another thing is, I will be flying over on the 11th of May. So there.
]]>I am not sure what is happening to me. I dun use to be like this. this sem the exams doesnt seems to go too well. how to say, i studied a lot but i just cant seems to pen them down for the exams. like for stats, i studied hard and i really understand the stuff, but when questions like, "define in non mathematical terms the main purpose and principles underlying the ANOVA test." comes out, i really dunno how to answer. and the other parts from ng sze hui, its like. haiz. and now it is marketing and manu log next. marketing, i havent even finish reading the tb once, that it how bad it is. i have read the important chapters which are coming out for the short questions, but for the mcq. i dunno how come i havent finish reading the tb. then for manu log, it is like i am going to attempt all the tutorials and hw again and then do the exam papers. tell me about it. i just hope that my cap this sem reach 4. so that i wouldnt drop and there is still hope of making it to second upper class. i am so screwed, dunno why i havent gotten to 2nd upper yet. ARGH!!!
]]>well well, set up this place so that i can tag on ruoling vox account. think this is quite a nice blog space. hee. i shall start voxing once i finish my exams. must study marketing now.
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